Mother's Day

My Mom and I at my wedding reception

Today many of us celebrated Mother's Day. Last year we celebrated as well, we were still healing from the miscarriage in January but we also had a secret that only a select few knew. We were expecting again. We only told a few near to us as we wanted their support and prayer. I was just told today that one person wished Jason a "Happy Mother's Day" to me, but told Jason because they knew I was still dealing with the loss of one child. They did not know we were also celebrating good news. They were filled in after another family member found out that they had passed on these kind words to Jason for me. It was nice to hear today that others recognize that we consider the one we lost just as much a child of ours as Everly is, who also feels that one day we will get to meet this little one who left us so soon.

Me, my sister Taressa, and my Mom who was prego with Tasya

This Mother's Day was different, this year I woke up just after 5am to the babbles of my little girl in her room. I went in to check on her, and was quickly greeted with big eyes and huge smiles. Suddenly the time on the clock just disappeared, I enjoy my early morning quiet time with my little girl as we cuddled in my comfy chair and got her settled back down to sleep some more after she ate. The night before I held her with tears in my eyes because of how fast she is growing up, it just amazes me because she has already changed so much. I feel like I've almost missed a lot of her "infant" stage, I find myself reminding myself to slow down, forget about the kitchen that needs cleaning and just enjoy her as I only have a baby for a year.

The second time I got to hold Everly

To my Mom, and all the other Mom's I know and who are a part of my life... thank you.

Today I found myself saying a little prayer for all Moms... Moms who have had a baby, never had a baby, lost a baby, surrendered a baby for adoption, and those who had their baby taken away during a difficult time. Mother's day is meant to be a happy day, but for some it can also be a sad day. My heart goes out to all Moms, no matter what Mom you may be.